The last couple of days have really been mentally hard for me. I am starting to think nasty thoughts about food. And not necessarily bad for you food. I am lusting after a peach or a piece of bread or like my friend Misty, a tall glass of cold milk. Several times I was at the brink of giving in to the overwhelming temptation only to pull myself back to reality. But, I am breaking down rapidly.
We will have been at this for 4 weeks on Wednesday and I can see some results. But, that is dangerous for me because I can easily rationalize taking a bite here or a sip there. With no end in sight to the strict diet I am starting to get really weak.
I spoke to Doriana today on the phone and she really encouraged me. She talked me down off the fence by telling me that "the food will always be there." Milk, pasta, pizza, mashed potatoes and cheesecake will be waiting for me when I am done and am on a maintenance plan. But for now I just need to stay the course and convince my brain to think differently. She assured me that there would be a free meal in my future soon but to hold out a little while longer. I have worked so hard by working out and eating right for 4 weeks and it would be a shame to regress because of a moment of weakness.
Those are the truths that are grounding me for now. I almost have to chant it over and over again when I am tempted to get me through the impulsion of eating (gorging) on yummy food.
I guess I just gotta keep taking it one day at a time. God Help Me!
Christina,
ReplyDeleteYou go girl! You CAN do this! I will be praying for you and call or text if you need some moral support :) I am working alot b/c Ken is still on strike, but God is good! I love this quote from the Karate studio wall, "The moment one definitely commits, all sorts of things occur to help you that never would have occured otherwise. Whatever you can do, or dream you can do, begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it. Begin it now." It will come to pass. Believe.
Kim